Many times in our lives we are measured by what we do, and our worth is determined by the results we achieve. This idea is often enforced into us through school, and it’s grading system. For some love is something to be rewarded, and it is conditional. When we grow up believing that our self worth is measured through our achievements, and that love is something that’s conditional we grow up and live in brokenness. We have a perverted or warped sense of worth, and love. If your suffering with self-condemnation, or feeling unworthy of God’s love or his presence you may have a perverse sense of worth and love. Although these things can only be mended with your journey, hopefully I may be able to shed some light on the true nature of your worth towards God. You are a child of God, and thus your a prince or princess of heaven. You were made in his image, and his good qualities are built into you but you are not God. You still make mistakes, and you may sin, or stray from God from time to time, but the lord understands that. As it says in Romans 6:14
“For sin shall not have dominion over you: for ye are not under the law, but under grace.” Romans 6:14
Think about someone you truly love, maybe a sibling, a parent, a teacher, or spouse anyone really. Now if they were to make a mistake, would you abandon them? No you’d of course forgive them, and still love them. God holds that to a even greater magnitude. As I’ve discussed before God loves you in all the ways you need. As a friend, a father etc. His love for you is all unimaginable and nothing you do would ever turn him away. In Luke 15 11:32 we have the parable of the lost son. It tells the story of how a father split his wealth between his two sons. The younger moves away and squanders the money carelessly, while the older son stays with his father. When the younger son came back after many years the father threw a party killing the largest calf for the returning son. The older son was angry that he never had such a large party even when he stayed with the father for many years. The father then said
“Son thou art ever with me, and all that I have is thine. It was meet that we shuld make merry, and be glad: for this thy brother was dead, and is alive again; and was lost, and is found” Romans 15:32
What is being shown here is a parents love for their child. Even when his child comes home after spending years with prostitutes and sin he is welcome back into the house. Not for any other reason then that it is his son. The father is glad, that the son is now “found” he has come back home, and that is the most important part. The lord will not condemn you for your mistakes, though he may discipline you there is a difference. The most important part to him is that even though you’ve made mistakes your still with him, and your still his son. You are God’s son or daughter, and no matter what you’ve done he will always love you just because you are his and he is yours. If you struggle with self condemnation, from my personal experience it either stems from the way you view your worth or self-righteousness. If it’s from either of these to things then you have to realize that you are worthy of God, and that he loves and values you. You also need to realize that you need to forgive yourself for the things you’ve done. It’s not your responsibility to carry your sin, it’s God’s. So at the end of the day if you ever condemn yourself, or have self doubt ask yourself if you love God. If the answer is yes, then you love yourself too because part of loving someone is loving who they love as well.